Again....

i really dont know what to say now...
i...
i dun know what to say when people asked me what i have done with my life
i dun know what to say when people ask me what i do in my free time
i dun know what to say when people ask me what i did in my holidays


i failed again
i swore to live a better , more constructive life when my 1 year holiday start but i failed
i swore to be less critical about others and be more open hearted
but i havent changed

i am now 19 already
ToT
is everything too late?