Grey's Anatomy season two

arrr, i start to dislike most of the fighting animes, cause the main character is always the best, most pretty/handsome ,always win, always the coolest............i m sick of that

i didnt use to believe how hard it is to forget someone you love when you cant love that person, but thats before

maybe you can say dramas like those are all fake, but really ?since the love part are proven true in real life..(dont ask me how).. then all the twise and turn of fate can be true in the same way....Denny died after a successful heart transplant after izzie risked her carrear to get the organ and he proposed, a world class surgent lost his ability to use his arm, accidents happen and sometimes only the ones in better conditions were given the hope to live on,,,, but i did felt sick the meredith and dereck XXX in hospital again ....ill... guess she is dumping finn ....i like him much better........
i like watching things in hospital, not just im a PM student but stories there can make me realised lots of things...and remind me about alot of things,,,,...
i want to watch on,,,,but still got biology .....ARRRRR

every1 know?

there is another trip organised by Mrs lim to go watch sea turtles at the end of june RM 300 all food included....Tony really wants to go so anyone who wants to go tell him
i guess i wont be going because .....will the kk trip should be enough for my parents to take in.

so every knows how they want to live their lives? i guess i just realised that the way of life is something to work for, not a blessing that comes by waiting.
i guess we are all powered by our aim of life, Tony made me realised that, or else what can make a playful boy like him to be able to sit for hours in font of his desk late into the night.
so what do i want? how do i reach my goal, arr.........
so does every ones knows how they want to live their lives?

life.....never prefect...earthquake in sichuan

i used to be a weird perfectionist

i wanted to be the perfect one in front of others and expected everyone around my to be perfect

then i finally realised the taste of reality

i wasn't perfect the way i wanted to be so i through my confidence away

and dislike myself

no one was perfect the way i wanted them to be so i had no friend, fought with my parents, and isolated myself

because i hate things to not follow the way i wanted to

and then i realised thing never will

good, life will be boring if we can plan everything

but when disaster strike

and people around you are crushed by the collapsed building

and the family who dont want to let you go out with friend at night,stop you from watching TV, friends who take your help for granted and point out your mistake out loud, are dying.........what would be in yout mind in front of the wackage?

will you dig with your own bare hands or walk away to find shelter

will you feel regret for not realising how important they are to you? and how minor their "imperfections" are for you actually?

my family ,i love you

my friends ,i cant live without you guys

all those who smiled at me ,i am glad i met you

all who hurt me ,thank you

i am sorry for my selfishness, rudeness, bitchiness..

i am sorry i didn't realised how important you all are for me

i wish this is not too late

planning....

"Queensland very good u know"
"........US government might spornser you...."
"that is the best pharmarcy school in UK....but they claim so themselves la..."
"UCSI very cheap also....3 years only...."

i was in the library blogging and suddently the two people infront of me talked about their uni plan, caused me to panic again.

@#$()*$^()#$^(#&@_

black goes with white?

picking what colour to mix for your art work is something like picking friends
even though friendship is more like natural selection
cause it comes natually
but when you realise how different you and your friend can actually be
perhaps more than you can image cause what brought you together is your similiarity
not just different goals , different taste, different way of life but
even different wisdom, different moral, different pasts
i should hav expected all this
but i am astonished how important being a open minded person it actually is
cause no one is the same as me
and i m no way close to be loved by all



just like mixing colours, that there is no point mixing the same ones, and sometimes
the best combination comes from two completely different ones
and how does friends add colour to my life.....
this is how .......i can never paint an interesting enough art piece with single colour right?
well i cant.


so what colour should i wear for prom?

ps i will only blog about my kk trip after my exams if i m still able to live on, so be patient

self appreciation

its hard
but i decide to like myself
no matter how bad i m compair to others cause i m tired of it
i may be a freak, a gay, a nerd for some but i decide not to take those too seriously
after all i m on my on for this war of exams
and no one will ever pity me if i harm myself when i dont even appreciate my existence
"one only has the right to help others when they can help themselves"
and i decide to work hard to create worth of my existence instead of depending other's opinions

got to go to do past year papers now!
every one work hard!

yes i m emo alice, on the blog, but better to let thing out somewhere that no one gets hurt right???

A'level Subsidiary Exam........

my AS exam coming in 7 days time, but i feel i havn't even start to get back to my exam mood.
watched too much TV at home, slept too much,online too much....OMG what m i doing,
i guess either i hav already given up high hopes or i am over confident for no good reason. help me!i m not like the me before, who had given up all entertainments for exams, who blocked the door way of his room so he can stop himself from going out to watch TV .
arrr why cant i stop my hands searching for anime on youtube?????
WHY?
i m such a loser........
ok i will try that again...hope its not too late.

good luck to all for ur exams ;D

and to me too hehehaha