2008

New year

what surprise awaits us and what burden can we leave behind?

what new things we will learn and what are we going to loss?

for me, an A level student, guess it is going to be a busy year ( i hope)

it took me quite long to realise that life will never always flow the way i want

quit as a perfectionist, i decide to just flow the way things goes

but then i realised again that it is not so easy to get what u want

more hard work and effert required then i imagined

but that's life i guess

well a new year is NEW year

another beginning of .....who knows...except God

whatever awaits me

i want to face it

and pay the pain for the gain!

it is a crutial year for many of us!

i wish you all super duper goodluck

over the sea and opposite the road

Wish we all work towards our goals and still in contact

no matter it is the best or worst times

please keep in contact my friends!

wish we all a good family as shelter to rest

good lecturers as guides to learn

good friends as mates to share

and remain HAPPY for 2008

Happy New Year WAHAHAHA!!!!

生活之感

有时我觉得

生活像是在与孤独和空虚作伴

像是在与无奈和绝望舞蹈

面对眼前无底的变数

背着后面期望中的压力

听着旁边传来一阵阵的责备

和没有自我的自己

没了信心

音乐无法使我振作

亲情无法传达

都在忙碌的知己

又剩下了我自己

为什麽我这麽脆弱

被这米粒般大的骂声击穿

背着落叶般轻的挫折压倒

我想离开 自负老爸的视线

我想自立 不想依靠别人

我想做我自己 过我想要的人生

可我还没这能力

可我却这麽懒惰

可我还这麽犹豫

我没了动力

最近在找宿舍， 知道了什莫是好事多磨， 什莫是依靠别人来生活的痛苦，

什莫是人在江湖，身不由己

啊我可不是什莫悲剧人物。。。

知道我应该知足

。。。

可是

。。。

好难哪

。。。

是拉， 我是满 emo 的。。。。。。。。。。。

写到了这里，我戴上了我爸不知道存在的不锈钢戒指。。。。rebel!

希望我的动力源永不生锈

大家不都一样吗

孤独和空虚
无奈和绝望

谁没有呢？

大家一起齐心协力地。。。

向各自的目标

奋斗吧！！

Yew Chaun 讲得不错！

有了孤独才会懂得珍惜身边的人

而现在的麻烦会变成以后的美好回忆

“父母“ 。。。也是某某人写的。。

媳妇说："煮淡一点你就嫌没有味道，现在煮咸一点你却说咽不下。你究竟怎想怎么样？"

母亲一见儿子回来，二话不说便把饭菜往嘴里送。

她怒瞪他一眼。他试了一口，马上吐出来， 儿子说："我不是说过了吗，妈有病不能吃太咸！"

"那好！妈是你的，以后由你来煮！"媳妇怒气冲冲地回房。

儿子无奈地轻叹一声，然后对母亲说："妈，别吃了，我去煮个面给？"

"仔，你是不是有话想跟妈说，是就说好了，别憋在心里！"

"妈，公司下个月升我职，我会很忙，至于老婆，她说很想出来工作，所以......" 母亲马上意识到儿子的意思："仔，不要送妈去老人院。"声音似乎在哀求。

儿子沉默片刻，他是在寻找更好的理由。 "

妈，其实老人院并没有甚么不好？知道老婆一但工作，一定没有时间好好服侍。

老人院有吃有住有人服侍照顾， 不是比在家里好得多吗？"

"可是，阿财叔他......" 洗了澡，草草吃了一碗方便面，儿子便到书房去。

他茫然地伫立于窗前，有些犹豫不决。母亲年轻便守寡，含辛茹苦将他抚养成人，供他出国读书。但她从不用年轻时的牺牲当作要胁他孝顺的筹码，反而是妻子以婚姻要胁他！

真的要让母亲住老人 院吗？他问自己，他有些不忍。 "可以陪你下半世的人是你老婆，难道是你妈吗？"阿财叔的儿子总是这样提醒他。

"你妈都这么老了，好命的话可以活多几年，为何不趁这几年好好孝顺她呢？树欲静而风不息，子欲养而亲不在啊！"亲戚总是这样劝他。

儿子不敢再想下去，深怕自己真的会改变初衷。 晚，太阳收敛起灼热的金光，躲在山后憩息。一间建在郊外山岗的一座贵族老人院。

是的，钱用得越多，儿子才心安理得。当儿子领着母亲步入大厅时，崭新的电视机，42英寸的荧幕正播放着一部喜剧，但观众一点笑声也没有。

几个衣着一样，发型一样的老妪歪歪斜斜地坐在发沙上，神情呆滞而落寞。有个老人在自 言自语，有个正缓缓弯下腰，想去捡掉在地上的一块饼干吃。

儿子知道母亲喜欢光亮，所以为她选了一间阳光充足的房间。从窗口望出去，树荫下，一片芳草如茵。

几名护士推着坐在轮椅的老者在夕阳下散步，四周悄然寂静得令人心酸。

纵是夕阳无限好，毕竟已到了黄昏，他心中低低叹息。 "妈，我......我要走了！"母亲只能点头。他走时，母亲频频挥手，她张着没有牙的嘴，苍白干燥的咀唇在嗫嚅着，一副欲语还休的样子。儿子这才注意到母亲银灰色的头发，深陷的眼窝以及打着细褶的皱脸。

母亲，真的老了！

他霍然记起一则儿时旧事。那年他才6岁，母亲有事回乡，不便携他同行，于是把他寄住在阿财叔家几天。母亲临走时，他惊恐地抱着母亲的腿不肯放，伤心大声号哭道："妈妈不要丢下我！妈妈不要走！" 最后母亲没有丢下他。他连忙离开房间，顺手把门关上，不敢回头，深恐那记忆像鬼魅似地追缠而来他回到家，妻子与岳母正疯狂的把母亲房里的一切扔个不亦乐乎。

身高3英寸的奖杯──那是他小学作文比赛《我的母亲》第1名的胜利品！华英字典──那是母亲整个月省吃省用所买给他的第1份生日礼物！

还有母亲临睡前要擦的风湿油，没有他为她擦，带去老人院又有甚么意义呢？ "够了，别再扔了！"儿子怒吼道。"这么多垃圾，不把它扔掉，怎么放得下我的东西。

" 岳母没好气地说。"就是嘛！你赶快把你妈那张烂? 哺С鋈ィ颐魈煲衣杼碚判碌模? 一堆童年的照片展现在儿子眼前，那是母亲带他到动物园和游乐园拍的照片。"它们是我妈的财产，一样也不能丢！"

"你这算甚态度？对我妈这么大声，我要你向我妈道歉！"

"我娶你就要爱你的母亲，为甚么？嫁给我就不能爱我的母亲？"

雨后的黑夜分外冷寂，街道萧瑟，行人车辆格外稀少。

一辆宝马在路上飞驰，频频闯红灯，陷黄格，呼一声又飞驰而过。

那辆轿车一路奔往山岗 上的那间老人院，停车直奔上楼，推开母亲卧房 的门。

他幽灵似地站着，母亲正抚摸着风湿痛的 双腿低泣。

她见到儿子手中正拿着那瓶风湿油， 显然感到安慰的说："妈忘了带，幸好你拿 来！"他走到母亲身边，跪了下来。

"很晚了， 妈自己擦可以了，你明天还要上班，回去吧！" 他嗫嚅片刻，终于忍不住啜泣道："妈，对不 起，请原谅我！我们回家去吧！"

～～后语～～

随着自己愈长大，看着父母亲脸庞从年轻变憔 悴，头发从乌丝变白发,动作从迅捷变缓慢，多心 疼！

父母亲总是将最好、最宝贵的留给我们，像 蜡烛不停的燃烧自己，照亮孩子！

而我呢？有没 有腾出一个空间给我的父母，或者只是在当我需 要停泊岸时，才会想起他们......

其实父母亲要的真的不多，只是一句随意的问候 「爸、妈，你们今天好吗？」随意买的宵夜，煮 一顿再普通不过的晚餐，睡前帮他们盖盖被子， 天冷帮他们添衣服、戴手套....都能让他们高兴温 馨很久。

有时，我常在想：我希望我的子女以后 如何对我。

那现在，我有没有如此对待我的父 母？我相信，人是环环相扣的；现在，你如何对 待你的父母；以后，你的子女就如何待你。

朋友，人世间最难报的就是父母恩，愿我们都 能：以反哺之心奉敬父母，以感恩之心孝顺父母！

～共勉之～

生命不要求我们成为最好的，只要求我们作最大的努力！

朋友。。。某人写的。。我很喜欢。。谢啦某某人

~ 朋友是永恆的感動 ~

朋友你好嗎？
一句親切的問候一個會心的微笑似一抹柔風輕撫紅唇永遠讓人感動！
心情落寞的時候一句 你好嗎？
一聲輕輕的問候恰似一縷溫情溢滿心間永遠讓人感動！
遇到困難四處無助時一句
我幫你
淡淡的關懷纏繞身邊永遠讓人感動
奔波忙碌一天拖著疲憊的身體回家時一句
你辛苦了
這般溫柔的疼愛永遠讓人感動……
無論跋涉的腳步行於多遠想到在暗夜裡 風雨中
孤寂時始終有朋友為我點燈 撐傘
撫慰總會有種神奇的力量永遠讓人感動
真正的朋友其實無所謂遠近
其實無所謂性別
也許他身在咫尺也許他遠在天涯只要彼此相擁，
互相關照 這份相知 相思 相助相契就是人間
最溫柔
最愜意
最暢快
最美好的意境就是人間最真摯的感動聲音
披著風
如春雨下降給我撫慰
令我動容也許就是我們的笑
我們的快樂洋溢成文字
關愛了彼此的心
這個虛擬的網路世界其實也有許許多多真誠的朋友真因為如此，
才讓你我如此對一切眷戀不舍
在家依父母出門靠朋友
朋友是能與你風雨同舟同甘共苦的人
朋友是會讓你在心底深處常常牽掛的人
朋友就是你能信任他，
他也了解你的人
朋友是能分享你的成功，你的喜悅而從不忌妒你的人
朋友是能傾聽煩惱並給予有益建議而不泄露隱私的人
朋友是能在你需要時給予你幫助而不求任何回報的人
朋友也是讓你常常不由得自己去深深依戀的人
人一生可以貧困，但再貧困不能窮得沒有朋友
人一生可以富有但即使再富有也不能富得忘了朋友
生活中人世間朋友就是一筆財富每一次激蕩每一份歡快 每一份驚喜，每一句問候 每一句關懷……都是一瓣瓣的心香……什麼是朋友？
朋友是快樂時容易忘記的人
朋友是痛苦中第一個想找的人
朋友是打擾你了不用說對不起的人
朋友是幫助你了你不用說謝謝的人
朋友是你步步高升也不用改變稱呼的人
朋友是扎根在你腦海中想摔也摔不掉的人


朋友：你有這樣的朋友嗎？ 如果有請你一定珍惜因為失去了將不會復得以誠相見 心誠則靈以心相許 心靈相通讓我們永遠是朋友朋友:讓我為你捧上一杯幽香陣陣的清茶帶上一份心與心的相通相融輕輕地說一聲：你好嗎？朋友是永恆的感動！！！ 你我雖不常見面 . 但關懷的心永不改變 你我雖不常聯絡 .但信件聯繫著你和我 有時間看信是一種幸福 願你和我ㄧ起分享這屬於我們的秘密時間吧 !!!☆．﹒‧ °∴ ° ☆．﹒ ‧ ° ∴° ☆﹒﹒ ‧ ° ∴° ☆ ★★

如何快乐。。。不知谁是写的

一大早，我跳上一部計程車，要去台北郊區做企業內訓。 因正好是尖峰時刻，沒多久車子就卡在車陣中，此時前座的司機 先生開始不耐地嘆起氣來。隨口和他聊了起來：「最近生意好嗎？」後照鏡的臉垮了下來，聲音臭臭的：「有什麼好？到處都不景氣，你想我們計程車生意會好嗎？每天十幾個時，也賺不到什麼錢，真是氣人！」 嗯，顯然這不是個好話題，換個主題好了，我想，於是我說：「不過還好你的車很大很寬敞，即便是塞車，也讓人覺得很舒服?」 他打斷了我的話，聲音激動了起來：「舒服個鬼！不信你來每天坐12個小時看看，看你還會不會覺得舒服！？」 接著他的話匣子開了，抱怨政府無能、社會不公，所以人民無望。 我只能安靜地聽，一點兒插嘴的機會也沒。 兩天後同一時間，我再一次跳上了計程車，再一次地要去郊區同一家企業做訓練，然而這一次，卻開啟了迥然不同的經驗。 一上車，一張笑容可掬的臉龐轉了過來，伴隨的是輕快愉悅的聲音：「你好，請問要去哪?堙H」 真是難得的親切，我心中有些訝異，隨即告訴了他目的地。 他笑了笑：「好，沒問題！」 然而走沒兩步，車子又在車陣中動彈不得了起來。前座的 司機 先生手握方向盤，開始輕鬆地吹起口哨哼起歌來，顯然今天心情不錯。 於是我問：「看來你今天心情很好嘛！」 他笑得露出了牙齒：「我每天都是這樣啊，每天心情都很好。」 「為什麼呢？」我問：「大家不都說景氣差，工作時間長，收入都不理想嗎？」 司機先生說：「沒錯，我也有家有小孩要養，所以開車時間也跟著拉長為 12個小時。 不過，日子還是很開心過的，我有個祕密?」 他停頓了一下：「說出來先生你別生氣，好嗎？」 當然好，只要是快樂的祕密，我這個念過心理學的都感興趣。 他說：「我總是換個角度來想事情。例如，我覺得出來開車，其實是客人付錢請我出來玩。像今天一早，我就碰到像你這樣的先生，花錢請我跟你到陽明山去玩，這不是很好嗎？等下到了陽明山，你去辦你的事，而現在是花季，我就正好可以順道賞賞花，抽根菸再走啦！」 他繼續說：「像前幾天哦，有一對情侶去淡水看夕陽，他們下車後，我也下來喝碗魚丸湯，擠在他們旁邊看看夕陽才走，反正來都來了嘛，更何況還有人付錢呢？」 漂亮！多精采的一個祕密！ 我突然意識到自己有多幸運，一早就有這份榮幸，跟前座的EQ高手同車出遊，真是棒極了。 又能坐車，心情又開心，這樣的服務有多難得，我決定跟這位 司機 先生要電話，以後再邀他一起出遊。 接過他名片的同時，他的手機鈴聲正好響起，有位老客人要去機場，原來喜歡他的不只我一位，相信這位EQ高手的工作態度，不但替他贏得好心情，也必定帶進許多生意。 快樂其實是一種習慣 心理學家發現，快樂其實是一種習慣，不論環境怎麼變，EQ高手的快樂決心是不會改變的。 當我們能換一種心態去看待自己的工作，並帶著遊戲般的愉快心情面對工作，你會發覺自己的內在能量強大許多，抗壓應變的功力也因此大為增進，而這，也正是貫徹快樂決心的漂亮做法。 我自己就常覺得，工作其實是一種偽裝，讓我有很好的藉口及機會，能因著演講及各種活動，去認識許許多多有趣精彩的人，這不是很過癮嗎？（更何況，往往還有人付錢呢！）。 如果您收到別人分享給您的好文章，不要吝嗇，您也可以繼續分享給好友，請別忘我這一份喔。 當我們用心對人時,有心人將以熱情回報妳,希望我們都是用心的人,也是有心的人 。

All the Christmas decos...and lights

The twin towerSo nice right!

At Pavilion
inside klcc

well guess this is the same as always

The eye on Malaysia

Hospital attarchment at Hospital Selayang!

Ar there was really no point wearing so formal!!!! the black leather shoes hurt soosooosooooo much. well since my application letter only stated "MEDICAL" i was force to stay in the medical department only...&^%&*$*#^*$&^%$........
the most interesting part should be following the doctor's round in the morning when the speacalised doctor can actually teach a medical student of Melborn U and me abit of things.
the medical student's name is Azni, a fourth year medical student, and thank GOD her hospital attarchment overlappes with my. she had to be both a translater and a teacher for me.....
it was quite annoying the there were so few patients and nurses who can talk in English or Chinese so i was.......very lost.....
well there were not much things to do after the doctor's round...i was soso bored ...that i went home early! muhahaha ! the sister was not there so no one cares whether i m there or not. my presence doesn't make much difference any way!

well i am thankful but it is just too boring for me! this is Azni teaching me to check for jurks...

i stil doesn't hav my nee jurk......

Cameron....water rockets!

well i thought it was a rather lame idea for adults to be making these things, but things turned ok-ly fun....i made my with my mom ,o engineers are such annoying perfectionists. the powert of the rockets far exceeded my imagination. me firing my “小新九九八十一号“ my number is 8

numer 7 is made by my dad and another uncle.

the rocket went all the way to about 200m into the air! all other people were quite good so the competition was rather tense! my mom and got third place in the end!!

Carmeron ....Star watching.....

Arr so hard to get the stars! please dont think this is what i saw think i got over excited over one star! there were much more stars visible to the eye at night than this! we were lying on the raod watching the stars slowly rotating across the sky until one in the morning..... could hav been romantic

如果你眼前是一片璀璨星空，你最想和谁分享这分快乐呢？

。。。。

是家人？ 是朋友？ 宠物? 还是 lover?
.........

if the sky upon you is full of spaking stars...who would you most want to share this moment with?

.....

would it be your family? friends? pet? or 情人？

我不知道我的选择是否对，也感觉这种事没有对错。 有么？

is there right or wrong, should or shouldn't to this question?

Carmeron .....at the market!!

Went to shopping at the market!!! such a nice pot of pitcher plant!!!! pot lemon! so big that at first i did not believe it could be lemon! even bigger than the ones i bought in supermarkets!
orchids!
so many catus!
guess what this is?? tell u later!
i thought this purple cauloflower would be poisonous......
wow cherry tomatoes like big pearls! Bern should love this.
tastey fried things.... there is a find of flower that was fried! goes with chill sauce!

Cameron ..place where i spent the night

Finally got to the place where the 40 of us will spent the night. very fresh air.. lots of spiders on the trees... i want to push someone into the bush and see, what happens.

i found this fantastic tree with hundred of flies...muhahaha cool right.the trail is covered in droplets of........tell u later... u should know

scenery from mountain top

the hill is full of purple flowers like these .....so nice
在碧绿的山坡上， 有星星点点的紫野花，

我穿着人工染绿的外衣，似乎把城市气息带来，

怎莫都融不进着与世隔绝的自然
不管对它有多麽渴望

也有一种格格不入的感觉

可能是我的心门还紧关着

here they are!! the moble ferteliser dispansers...
yes they are the sources of the dropping...........their smell goes quite fast.

Cameron ...on the bus

finally i am free and have a sad enought mood to write my blog (Chuang Tung's house is not available!)..................i want to swera ..... @*#*#%.... ($#*(%#(


Anyway i guess i was the oldest teenager for the cameron trip. it was organised by a astronomy club so the main purpose was to watch the stars at night... o "fun"....i was prepared to sleep on the bus but the organiser was so kind that he organised "fun activities" on the busso no one will get bored... yes he gave a quiz with postcards from japan as reward...my dad won two...
the big guy in orange shirt sure has great leadership skills. he managed to keep me awake for two hours.

More Pics to c!!

My grandparents of my mom's side on KTM!!!!!!

Look in the pic, taken outside of hardrock cafe, raining, and 2 workers are resting outside....unfair or fair??

went to klcc aquaria with my grand parents,,,the biggest frog i hav seen

this phase suits me so well and i present to u all from this book, maybe i should read it

Going to Cameron Highland

leaving for the weekend!!! with a group of astronomy lovers !!!!!!!!!!!(-_-")
Hospital Selayang said my applicatioin for the hospital attachment has been accept and i need to go before eight on monday!!!!!!!!! and i forgot to learn Malay....bought a book form klcc and study on the mountain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! or else i will really so lost in the hosipital...

Yes i dont believe this!!!!!!

Guess where ....Batu Cave!!!! Christmas decorations at Genting



finally i managed to add this playlist and counter to my blog!!!!!!!!!(i dont believe how simple it actually is)

My computer is too slow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

since it is holiday i want to reforate my computer by myself!!!! good luck to me,, if u guys dont c m online for the next few days then something must hav gone wrong.......

See these Pics!!!!

the blood thirsty Kheng Yoke during the photo taking section

Rebecca studing v hard for the exam....on .......... ....some one.....
o we were super stressed,,,and their way to release is to....
such a beautiful morning

wow these pics are taken v long ago......went to taste a chinese chief's cooking

Muhahaqhaqh who does that guy beside rebecca looks like?

After exam to Sunway Lagoon!!!!!

it is sososo fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i went for lots of things that i didnt dare before MUHAHAHAHA

Sin Sin is 18!!!! and her celerbration

Four of us went under the rain to buy this beautiful but taste not as nice cake for out birthday girl!!!!now woman....... that cake man wrote the wrong spelling!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LA LO YO YA YE WOW HE HA !!!!!! Semester exam finally finish!!!!

yea finally over!!!!!!
holi begins and my grandparents from my mother's side coming over tomorrow night!
wa wa wwa i hav so many things that i want to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!read manga, anime, TV , movies..........and so many other constructve things i need to do
i shall improve my blog first!!!!!

First swimming club day!!!! and 2 more weeks to exam!!!!

met up with Say Ying after 2 years.....she never change! got a RM 20 ring for myself.....
shopping for swimming cap last week...put into use today!

the pm15 guys who went for swimming!!! we all need to gain some weight...ayo so shy to put this pic,,,,go kheng yoke's blog to c more exciting pictures......she is so brave to put those up..... "i wish ...........a lot of things"



Every one please go visite http://jingyu90.blogspot.com/ which is Kheng Yoke's blog....there is lots of "fleshy"pics.......hehe

wow my pm15 friend celebriated my birthday for me... and here is the entertainment....i name it "KY Vs HP"....actually there was alot more this is just the ending...but i got no more time to upload.....

every one study hard for the semester exam! havnt started myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!so tired today...