Again....

i really dont know what to say now...
i...
i dun know what to say when people asked me what i have done with my life
i dun know what to say when people ask me what i do in my free time
i dun know what to say when people ask me what i did in my holidays


i failed again
i swore to live a better , more constructive life when my 1 year holiday start but i failed
i swore to be less critical about others and be more open hearted
but i havent changed

i am now 19 already
ToT
is everything too late?

a whole week of quizes and midterms....

i havnt felt this bad for a long time, because i did so much worse than i could.......

suddently like to listen to sad songs...which means , i have changed?

where is the Duck who listens to fast song to cheer himself up?

just checked my syllabus ....i might not get a good GPA even if i score full in my final exam now...

and i might fail my japanese class... then i will need to catch up on 5 units in the next two quaters..

how on earth am i going to do that>??

i cant even fell better when i watch Kang Xi Lai Le now, ,,what can i do

T_T

all the uncertainties...all the mistakes....all the troubles...

i cant focus on my revision anymore....ToT

arhhhh hope blogging will make me feel better...

i hate all this ....having no certainty to depend on...

help

miss you all!!!!!!!!!!!

finally i decide to update my blog....
it was a few crazy, lonely,and tiring month since my uni life started...
but i kept on having flash backs to my taylor time

every time i feels like singing i think of how good han pynn is
every time i listen to jay chuo's songs i wander whether alice is listening to them too
every time i get salad from my dinning commence i wander whether sinsin is still so anti vege
every time i i watch anime i wander if traditional watched the episode already
every time i use my ipod shuffle i wander if white fish is using hers too
every time i go to gym i remembered how successful tony is with his body building
every time i crack joke with a girl i wander what goldfish would say if it were her who i m talking to
every time i hear people talk about korean songs i think of ahun who taught me so much about them
every time i face a cold weather i wander how much min hee would need to wear if she were here
every time i hear people talking about dragon ball i think of yew chuan
every time i listen to amei's songs i wander if karmen is listening to them too
every thing i am hungry at night i think of makmak and roti canai
every thing i go to math class i wish it was Mrs Lim teaching
every time i play badminton i miss the time in 3k
every time i think of winter holidays i want to go back Malaysia
but not this winter
i dun know when
miss you all so much!
now you guys should be prold of yourselves because you have made a strong impression of on some one

A new beginning!

Finally, after so much waiting,
tomorrow I will move into my dorm
finally, my independent life will start
what will i face?
loneliness?
hopelessness?
helplessness?
......
i dont know
but i will pay my price to hav such a long holiday.
i will stop caring about what people think about me if they are not my friends
there is a saying:
"if you are not who you should be at your age, then you will never be"

i want to be who i want to be
i want to act like a person i want to become
i want to do well in studies and play
i want to make lots of friends

and i will pay what i need to pay, for those that i want.

so who will my new friends be?(if i can get any)
we will see....
so what will my new classes be?
we will know......
so who will i be??????
i will try my best!!!!

will all this be worth it????


i will make sure that's the case!!!!

orientation

一大早我就到了校园里，好冷～
人不多，可是有很多自行车
慢慢的集合的地方人多起来了
一群一群的中国人，大多数是研究生和交换学生，真正的本科生没几个





有扫地车



开会都在这个大讲堂里，讲说一个接一个


文科生的一个建筑


学校旁的火车站



火车上能上网，有两层，有电源插头，超高级！可是一张票要30美元



外面的风景超好！
又是田园又是大海

嘉年华～

今天姑姑姑父早上去他们一个朋友的葬礼
我就和甜甜在家，中午有一个居委会办的嘉年华我们回去参加
可是我们去得太早的
昨晚下雨了，今天天空看到了少见的云

还好有一颗大树遮荫， 不然太晒了

有一些给小孩玩的游戏，要拿奖品太容易了，不管再烂也会有人说“good job"
所以我也不好去和他们抢奖品，不过我们家抽奖中了两次！



吃的东西有很多，有肉臊子般的东西，加孜然的豆，肉肠，沙拉，各式各样的面包，甜饼。。。吃得撑死我了，反正没事做。。。。就一直吃。。。。


最后的节目是一辆消防车! 可以参观喔！ 还有真正的消防员解说！


他们小孩的合照，甜甜也在









之后又和姑姑和朋友吃晚餐，可是中午的还没消化完。。。。。。到最后我的胃又撑大了一大圈！
明天要去戴维斯准备我的orientation(不懂中文怎么讲）

哇没见过！！！

自从了来到姑姑家后，我每天早上都会在住宅区周围跑上一圈。。。啊真是冷死了！！！
不过风景和太阳都很好
早上月亮都看得到喔！

哇我第一次看到这种坚果！以前常常在迪斯尼动画里看到

土拨鼠随处可见！ 可是非常怕人 以前没见过

山坡都是黄的～～

坡上到处都有土拨鼠的洞！

哇啊啊啊啊啊啊 这也是我第一次看到真正的薰衣草！！ 路边种了不少，可是季节过了，大部分都黄了，我第二次跑才发现呢！！！！！




我从来没见过这么刺眼的太阳！！！



也才知道有这么大的松果！！！





要跑一圈我最快要一小时！！跑的时候路过的人常常会打招呼“good morning!"
真有礼貌！

the water cube!!

water cube!!! one of the most special architecture for the Olympic 2008!!when you look at it in real life than from the pictures!
it feels really different

我爱全日空！ANA!!

好久没坐正常（不是廉价）的经济舱了！
在和爸妈一把鼻涕一把泪的告别后，我进到了国际航班后机舱！


飞机上每人都有一个小电视，有好多电影可以看喔！！！我选了比较少见的日本电影看
我旁边坐了一个日本人，做的笔直笔直的！
然后到了日本xxxx（忘了名）机场
哇降落前的风景太美了！去日本时一定要坐窗边喔！

好了日本（机场）考察开始！


日本的特色小吃，超甜的（有试吃）也超贵（～￥100）

里面也有一个小小的折纸博物馆！！！！ 真是大开眼界！！！
所有的东西都是用纸做的！



日本人太夸张了！ 纸鹤能折到肉眼看不到的水平！！！



85人民币的面！

机场买的东西会给我换算错的错觉。。。区区小东西会上千人民币？！？！？！
还是中国早市好！

哇好久没有被好好服务过了！ 飞机上的甜点还有哈根达兹冰淇淋！！！香草味～～
好多电影看喔！！ 开心！