waaaaaaaa!!!

finally! i got an offer letter from US!
University of California Davis! biomedical engineering!
my family is so so happy
just now i looked into one of Sin Sin's friend's blog studying in Canada !
the picture he took there are so beautiful!
what attarcts me most is that it snows so heavily there!
where i will be going doesnt snow at all...T_T
i wander how the life will be there.....
now i am starting to worry about my documents and visa......
hope everything will work out!

life...PM15 manga-nised pls comment

both of my tuition are cancelled for tomorrow so i cant go skating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
T_T
and next week the price will be RM21 for the school holiday.. being so depressed I stay up to strat on my magna characters....can u recognise the ones below?

yes this one is clear enough i guess....it's me!

......

i bet even i wont able to recognise this one....

the photo i was using to refer had a very difficult expression to catch u c...

so it turned out to be so funny that i could rub off..

this is "supposed" to be .....tony

this beautiful lady is ...

aliceturtle


this handsome one is.....the earmuffs can help u remember..

he looks so much better he haha


tranditioinal




this sexy one...is another one that i am not statisfied with
her facial features are v hard to expressed in comic sence....


she's goldfish





even i was suprised wheni isaw the result
he looks so much better here muhahahahahahahahahahaha
can u tell>???
i dun think so


it's Hann







i m not staisfied with this too!
his features r hard to express
can u take a guess?


yew

please tel me ur opinion or it will be hard for me to work on my manga on our beloved PM15!

Safety Zone

I realised that it is better to live not too comfortably before I can support and protect myself
cause i dont want to be one of those people who needs support from parents even after University!!
so i better set my standard of living a little below my expectation...it is better to have some thing to chase after than to be lazy and satisfied
what's not my is not my...and how other people live is not what i should worry about
but i am always waiting to be inspired with different way of life
i am not good enough at anything at this stage
how to improve ?
it is to leave my own safety zone
to stop rejecting ideas that could change my opinion and way of life
to force my self to do things that needs to be done even though that's not what I am used to do before
to stop turning away form the difficulties and face my weaknesses and mistakes
i feel so short of time these days....
on TV i heard one athlete said :" bed is the coffin of youth"
and to know others in uni are starting to work so hard already....
i dun want to stay the same any more
i cleaned up my room today and was so surprised to find it so dusty and messed up
the result of hesitating to do things when they could be done at first
yes i regret
i survived i Malaysia without learning Malay, Cantenese, Hok Ka or any other language except English
but why didnt i, after staying for almost 8 years?
caused i felt comfortable staying at home and be as lazy as i could
i giv up paino cause i didnt want to practise
i actually felt happy when i giv it up
how foolish
......
i just got to do my best now

My fridays.......

My legs felt like as if they are on fire, with swollen bruses and big bubbles of pus under the skin.
but i m happy!
why?
it is because i went for ice skating again for three and half hours!!!!
just as i was worrying that i lost interest for the sports after a few lonely sessions i mastered a new move on my own and successfully mastered most of the basic moves of level 1(yea...not all...most) i can finally travel on one leg for 5 seconds!
i really want to learn how to skate backwards and do spins
i want to go practice more often but i think it is better not to push my dad's limit ...
wooo it feels so nice to glide on ice~~~

Equal, or Unequal exchange,process & change....

Watching " A date with Lu Yu" and "Full metal alchemist" these days....
learnt alot of things
many things in life needs the application of equal exchange
we need the equal amount of sacrifice to get what we are after
but that's the minimum
the balance rarely benefits ourselves
most of the time we need to work harder, try again and again, scarifies more time and leisure
Lu Yu 's show was mostly about Taiwan artist these days and i watched the interview with 侯佩晨。。。jay chao's ex girl friend
something she said was right... life is about experiencing the process of living..
yes the process
whether it is joy or pain
"it is only complete when you experienced and accept the goods and bads of life"
yea
whatever we are going through now
we should calm down and feel it, then accept what we are, how we are
because everything will pass
everything
pain can be erased by time and so is joyful experiences

maybe the results are not that important
as long as we are happy during the process
and have the courage to look back and laugh at ourselves
because they were the process
and when we become a stack of white bones......we have nothing left

read "who moved my cheese" again
felt so much more strongly than the last time i read it

change is unavoidable
so why bother resisting?
always be ready for it ,,,so we can make something good out of it......
i need to accept now too
sniffing around for the scent of change
with abit of reluctance, i realised somethings will never be the same again
the memorable A level time....
but i got to move on

i dun

i dun know how to write
i just dun cherish
i cant explain
is that in my genes that i wont learn from my lessons?
i just hav to complain about at i lost
but never, thank for what i get
o i will waste my life away
in emptiness and despaire
when all i hav is gone before i can hold on
when i hav no one left

distance is good

i am bad
my heart is black
i am selfish and revengeful
lazy and ignorant
brainless

and i thought i was innocent
how funny
it should have been foolish and stupid
how can i be so dirty......i dun know
maybe distance is good
v good for people like me
closeness is dangerous.....the closer , the more damage

today.......

after learning jet lee's positive attitude of appreciating the undesirable things that happen in life.... i start to feel better
if i havnt being locked up at home for so long....would a gathering dinner be something to be so happy and excited about?
now waiting for my L licence , i guess i will just make my " house husband " life constructive
today when i was suppose to just ask my grandparents i bumped into the room when they were having a chat
they were happy to c tat i went to talk to them, and said i talk to them too little.....
appears that a TV program brought up some sad memories of my grandpa
he cried abit , regretting that he didnt manage to take care of his mom and younger brother who died long ago........
well....it would be foolish to say things too positive at that moment
i realised that things like "learn from ur mistakes" or "u did wat u could" wont help much when facing the true tragedies in life......tat have formed a life time regret and sorrow
yes....there are some mistakes that we cant afford make....like not treating parents the best we could
they made who we r today...............right?

wooo there is still such people in this world

just as i cursing ans swearing to my self all day for being locked up at home....
i watch the tv show on Phoenix tv about lives of ex-Taiwanese soldiers..

sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
sadddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

here is how one spent his youth:
during his 20s as a solider he couldnt get married as the income for them were low and life was hard in taiwan
then the economy became better only when he was in his 40s
arranged dating didnt work out cause the ones he met mostly has children or are too young
he didn't trust wives too young and couldnt support too many children
then he worked at a super dangerous construction site after he resign from the militiry, lots of people died there from land slide......he had no choice since he was not skilled in other things
then he started to donate his savings to support children to go school.....
but he was living in a place that looks like rubbish dump and he didnt even have money to go hospital
he was alone and he was 90...there is no one to take care of him
he couldnt even take shower himself, so he had to call hospital service once a week to help him take shower.
then a Taiwanese family took him in
they were touched by his total donation of over RM 4000000....while suffering like that himself
the family took him as their grandparents and be his family
for the first time in his life there is a family to celebrate his birthday with
his old home in china mainland was no longer a home
his parents died, sister married to cities,,,,no one is there any more..only a small house


the Taiwanese family was so open with love and the old man is so kind hearted i could not believe......now there is something i can believe in....and there is nothing i can complain about when there r people who dun even want to buy themselves new clothes in order to save them for charity donation.....

wont the world be so much better if there are more people like them?