last chance

think chance of getting A for physics and chemistry is slimmer than i hoped....
still got bio to handle....but seems to be tired already...tired of alot of things...
went karaok today...but still not charged up...dreaming about the after exam trips....o my poor bio.. i forgot almost everything
tired of many things.........but soon this may be over...better buck up!
how to live without worry and expectations?
how to do my best without torturing my self and just be happy?
how to be happy when ur expectations won't be met?
how to live without other's opinion affecting you?
how to live without regret?

18

what a heavy number for me.....
adulthood....
seemed so far away before but here i am . 18
thank you all, my family and friends
thank you for the superb cake "traditional", "machine gun" and "turtle"
thank you sinsin to be the first to sms me tonight
well....feels weird to be an adult.....but i am now legal to do lots of things......
well good luck ...to everyone and my self...to be nice and happy people in future....

exam time

sign~~~~
too much to study for chem and physics....
no time for SAT...
i feel like wasting my time doing the applications caust i know that i will flunk my reading and writing....
spent whole day on US app again....so troublesome
maybe i should just let it be........arrrrrrrr
help ......... living so high at the tenth floor gives me impulse to jump ....
why people have such high goal? self torture

cornered.......

i am in a very stupid situation thanks to my ego and overconfidence.
this soso precious holiday only has three days left, i wasted so many days on the applications to uni of revising .this is bad, i just realised how different SAT biology is from my A level syllabus and i planned two days at the most to go through but till now i havnt finished. i was to hot headed that i paied for three!! three subject test, which is at next month, plus toefl next month, and my A level final exam next month!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the trail exam this time was a nightmare and now i havnt even touch my books for more than a week.... i am so in trouble! i will not catch up when college starts again, i will flunk my SAT exams and i will do badly for everything!!!!!!!!!!!!

so
i hav decided, no more surfing on net, no nore music or relax or daydreaming time, no more wasting time thinking, now what can save me is doing! i hav never being an efficient person but if i dont try my hardest now.....NUS....UC san diego....UC LA.......and i have no idea where on earth i got the courage to apply to lyv league...the essays they require arech a bother..
the most stupid thing is that i need to set in the UCs application before A level exams finish!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but the worse is not just that ,,,,if i want to have fun with my friends after exams i will hav to finiah allllllll the applications before my exam finish....

wat could be worse...........so the race against time stars now....

Distance.....and self management

good since not many people visit my blog now i can talk personal stuff

now, i realised that distance, is important.
people skills is all about keeping the perfect distance with the people around you.
i guess it applied to most cases, that the closer two people get does not mean the better their relationship becomes, well i guess parent to child ,,,maybe an expection but i don't know.
but how far apart? enough to breath and secure some privacy i guess...i don't know

but to me , who don't have the luck to have .... ......., distance sure creates beauty

some pics to share

a cat when to my hostel to give birth! the kitties are sososo cute so we just let the stay in the house, the mother came back at night, they are still in the house till now i think, in a box
does the guy in the news paper looks like some one we know?
me eating the super big jelly i cooked myself! i didn't like the canned fruit, taste of metal can

.....a not so holiday holiday

five days have passed, and i am still stuck with my uni applications with no big progress...... havnt revised anything for A'levels....sign~~~~

waaaa holiday

well....trail exam is over, and my days just gets tougher with all the English tests coming up plus my final exam....i hope the i see my result slip before my parents this time
i just wasted three days watching heroes...it was not as nice as i expected....
some times i guess i should let myself relax abit as i feel so stressd even during this hoiliday....and that "should i be a doctor" question still bugs me.
but at least i can get up late if i want to

good song....for a busy time

Song lyrics | I'm Yours lyrics
well the first part is bit werid
trial so close, olympic so exciting, uni dead line approching...but i hav hanging on
china vs korea today for men quaterfinal............woooo got to go ac to watch my friends!
wa still got swimming club poster to do......